Well, this is the fastest blog in the world! (Though I'm sure it's not the fastest pregnancy). The bean decided to bail on Monday, January 19th :(
Saturday I started to spot...hmmmm...but I figured, spotting happens in many pregnancies, and I tried not to worry. We spent the day with Abuela, Irene, Jeanette and David - we had dinner and it was nice.
Sunday I woke up and thought the spotting had stopped. I think it was just taking a deep breath, because it came back with a VENGANCE. At that point, I pretty much knew this was NOT a sticky bean. So it seemed that I just had my period, and I was beginning to think that maybe I was crazy...maybe I had NEVER really been pregnant and somehow imagined it! I was glad that I showed my positive test to Ben and my mom (and Elise...sorry Elise *hee hee*) so at least I had proof that I wasn't crazy (at least not yet).
Monday I woke up at 4am with very very intense cramps. I wasn't in pain, I could just tell that my uterus was getting rid of EVERYTHING. I pictured a little bald-man janitor walking around my uterus w/ a broom just cleaning the whole thing out. Because I got so little sleep, and because I cried so much on Sunday I looked like I was punched in the face, I decided to call into work on Monday. I'm glad I did because that afternoon as I was talking on the phone with Alexis, the bean came out. I won't go into detail, because quite frankly it was gross, but at that point I felt relieved. I was proud of my uterus to be able to do its thing :)
So this part of the bean blog is over...we may be down, but we're not out. I visited my great Midwife, Jen, and was told that she suggests couples wait 3 months, more for emotional healing versus physical healing (apparently fertility bounces right back). We will probably wait at least a month before we get back on that horse, just to make sure that everything heals up ok.
So thank you all for your well wishes (ha ha, as I write this I have STILL not invited anyone to view this blog!) It's an ongoing process, and I will continue this blog b/c bean #1 was apart of that process...so keep your eyes peeled in the coming months for more inevitably good news!!!